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father daryl. ([personal profile] pigsfeet) wrote2016-11-06 11:53 am
shri: (» are too vicious to tell)

[personal profile] shri 2016-11-27 10:10 pm (UTC)(link)
He was a damned fool, an idiot, a drunken, moronic, stupid - and how dare he? How dare someone as evidently thick in the head not listen to her when she was giving him what he wanted. That was the point. He was looking to get himself killed, and it wouldn't be from a walker: it would be her. She would get fed up one day and she would put one of his own bolts through his eye if he insists on being like this with her. She didn't need him treating her like this. Like her company was so necessary, or like she was half so human as him, more than any of them put together. Everyone else was content to just touch her expecting marble, and she pretended she didn't see the disappointment when they found her a person.

She'd never understand why he treated her differently. After all, he'd seen her heal, he knew what she was capable of coming back from.

Dixon must mean stubborn as an ass, and no one had told her, laughing at the immortal queen that didn't know what a iphone was or whatever it was this time. Give her time, she'd work it out.

He's an idiot, an idiot and she's leaving him in the woods on the way back. She doesn't need to stay with him, she can make a point once and for all that she didn't need any of them, and maybe, he'd leave her be.

( That she craves, that she wonders at - she shoves deep, below the virulent curses of him and his name and his father before him and any children that she'd die for, that she promises to see to, after him. Because it shakes her - when he just goes running off, the way he fights beside her. She expects, even now, for them to fall back to just let her do it. What did they care if an immortal got shredded limb from limb? They could grow them back, after all.

It was how it worked for centuries. Why didn't he just fall in line like everyone else? )

None of which, things she's willing to accept and the calling him stupid at the back of his head, come out of her mouth. Rather, she rushes into that room with a comfort and an ease as she tackles the first walker, and lets it take a bite. If it's too busy tearing into her flesh, they don't see her blade come down for their head. The next one goes down with a kick to the head, the one after that has its arm torn off and a piece of glass shoved through its skull. It goes and goes and goes in a violence of its own art, its own brutality. That takes chunks out of her and she kills off the stab of pain that she finds so necessary.

( Because she never worries that he might shoot her in all this, she trusts him with her life as it might be, and that's what she'd never say, that she needs that kind of comfort. that she might need anything at all, she has stopped even considering. )
shri: (» never stops she never fucking stops)

[personal profile] shri 2016-11-29 04:48 am (UTC)(link)
It's one second, where he isn't at the edge of her vision, where she's rushing one of them back into a wall to drive her blade deep into - a woman, pretty it looked like, had red hair that was blood and mud now, fallen out in clumps.

Then she does, then he's on the ground and she sees - red, but it's not quite that, the great upshoot of the blackwater that floods through her system. The clarity and the quiet that takes the place of fear or concern or anything but this, here and now - the words that come clear as anything: not him, not him, not him. She could lose it all but - not him.

She tears them off him, as they tear at it, blood that courses, down her - blood that fuels her, after he's safe - because he will be, he will, she'll make sure. She will always make sure. She won't lose anyone again, they were her people so much as it mattered anymore.

The first one's neck breaks, it's head ripped off by her bare hands. The one after has a knife through his stomach, one by one she rips them apart, she shreds, she tears and rends until there's nothing else, the splash of it on her clothes, her face, left but her alone in a scattering of corpses. Breathing hard and blade in hand. Terror only made her vicious, futility was nothing she had learned to handle well and he's fine - he will be, she will make sure of it. She alone can make sure of it.

Drops beside him, going to see if he's in one piece with shaking hands, because she doesn't trust her eyes in this dark. The hand going to his face as she gets her knees under her. Slick with blood and the gore as she pulls him to her, pushing his hair out of the way. Searching him over in fear that she does not know what else to do. Panic that is so carefully kept down, that weeps on the edge of her words. "Dixon. You're a fool. You are such a fool. I told you, I was giving you what you wanted. Why do you always insist on never listening to me?"

Goads him with a desperate attempt at surety. He'll respond, he always does. He always bite back and she relies on that too. Needs his petty insults and the things that keeps her human, keeps her here, she needs it and him and this and he can't, he can't -
shri: (» i'm slipping out of reach)

[personal profile] shri 2016-11-30 12:37 am (UTC)(link)
She doesn't follow him up, on her knees in the viscera, watching him stand instead - it's like taking sobering breaths of air. Her mind numbed to all else, as she feels the blacksight dim from her vision. Blinking out a haze like she was drunk or dazed or both. The air full and festering, rot and damp that filled this place.

The only comfort, the only thing that made this - this thing that she was worth it, was watching his motions, and once she has that, her head bows. Exhaustion, perhaps, the aftershocks of her worry, thick as the blood. Letting it slip away from her. He was safe, he was fine, nothing had bitten him, he would not turn - ( whether she means lycan, vampire or walker, she cannot tell it apart, it is one horror that has bleed into another into another as the years have gone by ).

"Deserve has nothing to do with it." Her fingers sit on her legs, loosely curled up - doesn't know how to let go of her blades, her weapons. She knows nothing else, but this, not anymore. "What ... what makes you so sure I even can?"
shri: (» and now people talk to me)

[personal profile] shri 2016-11-30 02:23 am (UTC)(link)
She leans into it, more than she usually does, - which is to say, she's always too aware, of being watched, every action, every murmur. Observed, weighed, deciding something she couldn't be aware of until it was done. Such was it was to be Queen, such was it was to spend a lifetime fighting in shadow. Memory better served in martyrdom than in living. That hadn't changed, because however he spoke to her, of her, they'd only see what she could mean. Proof of something that would go on, without concern of that weight. Better to let them think she did it with no regrets of herself.

Rather, she cannot lift it all under her own strength. Needs him for this, for her own humanity. For what it means to stare down these bits of herself. Needs the contact for what it is, a rock forward that feels like a stone working loose on a landslide, one thing tumbling after another. She pulls herself up as he tugs her. "They always did. Anything else was an illusion. That's why we... we were needed. To die and be removed from... from you all. It's easier to mourn an idea, because they were never real to start with."

The price, why wouldn't - she could never give the blackwater to another. No matter how they begged.
shri: (» if they don't fly we will run)

[personal profile] shri 2016-11-30 07:41 am (UTC)(link)
She shuffles the last of the steps. There's a thought there, in a moment, that she needs to get this off of her, off him, before they show themselves to another. Put her skin back her, her face, the things she must be for others. The heavy gold she will clean and clean again in the memories of why she wears it, the mark she paints no longer with vermillion, but red stained clay.

"Is that why you think I should stand to be voted upon?" Her hand stays on his shoulder, stumbling the steps, feet dragging through the clotted dust, staining her boots. "We were always... always just weapons. For someone else to use."

The sun outside is bright, clear. Light is so unforgiving, and she doesn't turn into it. She can't afford weakness, rather where her hand is set against his shoulder for support, she pulls him back, turning to face him, her slippery bloody fingers wandering as she turned to face him. Turned him back to her, where he makes such an easy shield. Whether it's to block light or the hissing joking words they exchange.

You don't deserve to die.

She swallows, trying to force it up, a gentle brush as she traces with worn fingertips to the line of his jaw. So, so very still, the blood that is red on her lips. "You... you are a relief to me." He doesn't look at her like that, he never has. "I never know what to do with it."
shri: (» the gravel and the stone)

[personal profile] shri 2016-11-30 10:02 pm (UTC)(link)
She watches him pull from the brush and she supposes that fear - she has never asked, but she has seen those scars on his back. Thought nothing of them, at the time, when she thought he had been military. What was that for a soldier?

Knew different now.

If he didn't want to know what to do with her, that seemed fair. Going the rest of the way back to the car with him, she leans herself gingerly into the car seat, her back stiff but only in a prickling sort of after awareness that fades and her head sinks back, fingers by her side on the chair. "Then we are even, and I would not ask for that to change."

A sigh, momentarily. "Take me to a river, I need to wash this off of me." Her head turns back from the tree whizzing by. "You too, you look like a Walker yourself. Not that I would blame them for making the mistake." Back to teasing, comfortable. A breath like she's trying to let some of the tension go.
shri: (» we're at the start)

[personal profile] shri 2016-12-01 02:44 am (UTC)(link)
It seizes hot until reasonably, obviously, it clearly hadn't done much. Twitches a curl at the corner of her mouth. "Well, I knew your head was thick, but I hadn't realised it would be that helpful."

She pulls herself out of the car, unwrapping her scarf around her neck as she goes, and laying it out on the bonnet of the car. Leaning over it, she undoes her hair again, raking it through with her fingers so she can unhooking the gold from her hair, from her ears, then from her nose piercing. Long looping chains that she snakes into a pile and bundles up into the scarf, following along behind him a moment later. Eyes up, as ever, on look out because that was staying alive.
shri: (» red orange yellow flicker beat)

[personal profile] shri 2016-12-01 04:06 am (UTC)(link)
She hisses sympathetically when she sees it. "Then I shall be glad of her inexperience."

She trusts his judgement about what is nearby, not just because this was his land, rather than her own. But because he was a hunter - a lifetime ago, he would have been her head of such matters, such was his knowledge, his eyes for it. He seemed to know where he was going no matter what.
shri: (» oh I'll leave you for dead)

[personal profile] shri 2016-12-02 02:29 am (UTC)(link)
She nods the once, had - quite enough feelings for one day, easier to be quiet now. Nods to him the once and passes him the wrapped up jewellery. "Don't lose it." Because she trusts him - now more than ever.

But it's been far too long till she felt moderately clean, and she's eager in the way she wraps the scarf around her waist, peels off the coat that she'd hung onto half as close as the gold.

After they're off, she comes back to his side, an amused laughter, as she looks at him - how strange this, how reminiscent of something she had not done in years. Not that it stops her particularly until she's down to pants and the under-shirt someone gave her to replace the silk that had ripped beyond use in one attack or another. Had some name for it - or whatever, they'd given her a funny look when she'd said it, which was normal - and an insistence that 'women didn't have to dress like that anymore.'

She'd been good, and only grumbled slightly at the changes that had gone by without her noticing.

They're bundled up and she kneels to the water's edge and begins to rinse them. Letting the water wash off the blood, half dried. Letting them soak before she lowers herself, splashing water up over her face and shoulder, a relief from the sun, letting it splash over her and cool her, find her face and hair under her blood as she cups it in handfuls and splashes it up and over herself. Running damp hands up over across the back of her neck and across her shoulders, brushing over an ugly entrance wound that sits a white scar on her dark skin.
shri: (» another roadblock in our way)

[personal profile] shri 2016-12-03 01:21 am (UTC)(link)
"Yes, Ganesha." It's a teasing admonishment, tossed over her shoulder - glancing a look where he's all turned around. Like they'd all been living in the close quarters of a camp.

Which is as much warning as he gets before there's a loud splash. Happily sunk into the water and dipped herself backwards into. Washing the blood off of her hair, her face. Not deep enough to truly submerge herself but - enough when she leans back at the right angle to get her head under the water. Feel it all just run off and that's more than enough right now.
shri: (» now we've become the ghost)

[personal profile] shri 2016-12-03 02:29 am (UTC)(link)
"Ganesha - the God." She's happily letting the water run over her. Raking her fingers through it in long motions. "The Goddess Parvati, Goddess of love, fertility and devotion, wanted to bathe, but she could do not do so safely, as her husband, Lord Shiva, the God of creation and protection, was not there."

More splashing, and she goes to gather up her clothes. Scrubbing them briefly, easy enough that in that it hadn't settled into dry long. Talking as she cleans it. "Shiva had left on his many wanderings. So, to protect herself, she shaped herself a guard - her son, Ganesha. She made him brave and strong."

Gently, still sloshing about in the water, pulling it up and twists it between the two hands to ring the water out, watching it run red and red less each time. When it comes out clean that last time, she drops it back again. Watching his turned back. "But then when Shiva returned and found a strange man standing outside his wife's room, he cried out in rage. Who dared try to stare at his wife bathing?"

She creeps up behind him, not that quietly, mind you, clear that it's her and not and walker, the wet clothes in her hands. Dripping between her fingers, until she was close enough behind to him to lean the sodden clothes over his head. "And he attacked Ganesha, his own son, with all the fury and might he could muster, with his armies of demons, and cut off Ganesha's head." Her little story complete, she viciously squeezed the water out of the the clothes, splashing water over his hair.
shri: (» the future runs through our bones)

[personal profile] shri 2016-12-04 12:37 am (UTC)(link)
She's sodden as she peers over him, shirt wet and hair clinging, grinning wide and easy before she gasps - mocking and high. "Daryl? That's blasphemy." She scrunches up the material again and splashes more water on him. "Lord Shiva is the destroyer that allows new beginnings."

And she splashes more water on him. Watching his face uncovered from the blood and muck as it runs off of him.

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